am i loud and clear or am i breaking up?

I waited till now, I suppose because I didn't want to ruin what I had yesterday. It was strange I woke up feeling the same way I always did but for some reason through all the bullshit that I was getting from people for situations I can honestly say I don't know where I would put me into that mix, other than an older relationship I held. But it was crazy, I looked right through it and just said "Fuck it" I've been slowly getting to this point over the past few months. It's been a chore indeed. I was constantly holding my self back in several situations I thought I would react terribly and everything would end on a seriously bad note. 

Yesterday was a great day in many senses, nothing major or exciting happened. I got to do what I wanted to do and just let everything else go. This definitely feels great. But there's one catch, I'm still feeling like I was little less that a year ago. I'm stuck in the same position without reassurance like before. I'm stuck. This frustrates me, but I'm looking at it differently than before. I've moved on in some aspects but this is still irking me to no end. But we'll see how it pans out.

I'm working with Sarah on the farm next week so I definitely think that, that is going to be a wicked good time. Also, hoping for a trip to Hali this weekend if my niece/nephew isn't born by then. Super excited to see some friendly faces there. Everything will be good after that I think. 

P.S I have the most ridiculous cuts from jonny's damn long board, fucking jerk didn't even help me up, just laughed. I did dice er pretty hard though. Thank god for rugby teaching me how to fall or I would've been making a serious trip to the outdoor. It was pretty hilarious though, I just wish I could have seen it from not my angle. 

till then.

--sg